Vierundvierzig. [ VOICE ]

[achtundsechzigbu]

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Where?

Lily?

Heine?

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Comments

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

You let him...

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I let him.

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

... ...Oh

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

... You can't understand...?

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

That's why I can't fight ...

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

<sub>It wasn't bad. It felt so nice and warm...

... but you want her to love you.</sub>

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

I don't want to...want to die.

...Yes. I can't. I have to. I don't know.

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

<sub>But you didn't die. You kept living...

... Giovanni...</sub>

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

Because I fought for her. I always want to fight for her.

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

_{Just for her?}

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

Only Mother.

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

_{What if she was gone?}

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't fight anymore.

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

Oh...

I understand.

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

...Good.

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

... _{Do you?}

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

No.

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

How can't you understand?

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

Because I don't want to fight -- but...

If Mother loved me, would she make me fight.

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

<sub>Yeah. She loved Heine best, and made him fight...

Why do you want her to 'love' you?</sub>

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

...I just do.

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

What if you can't be really strong like Heine?

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

I have to be...

[voice]

[maiglockchens.livejournal.com]

But what if you can't?

[voice]

[achtundsechzig.livejournal.com]

I might as well die.